Pretty Things - Parachute

Artist: Pretty Things
Album: Parachute

Tracklist :

• Scene One
• The Good Mr. Square
• She Was Tall, She Was High
• In The Square
• The Letter
• Rain
• Miss Fay Regrets
• Cries From The Midnight Circus
• Grass
• Sickle Clowns
• She's A Lover
• What's The Use
• Parachute

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Should I try smoking weed? (long read)?

I’m in my freshman year of college and have never done any drugs before. Alcohol yes, but never anything else.

The only reason I ask is because all my life I’ve been hearing from my friends, family, and my teachers/professors that I worry too much and I’m overthinking things. That’s how I work effectively and get things done to my liking I suppose. If I was never worried or stressed out in school, I would never stay on top of things.

However, it’s not like it doesn’t take a toll on me. This stressed/worried lifestyle seeps into my persona and I sometimes come off as a “worry-wart” or more recently, flip out whenever I’m angry or stressed out. This would just unattract girls from me. I think I’m handsome and have a good personality, but I guess all the worrying doesn’t do me any good.

The worrying has gone down immensely since I was accepted into college, but now I’m all stressed out, whether it be the workload here or the fact that I have never made out with a girl, let alone have sex with her like apparently over half the guys here. (I only hooked up with a girl when I was drunk a couple months back.)

So now I’m sexually frustrated, academically frustrated, and the college lifestyle is getting to me because my roommate is annoying me constantly, and everyone barges in here because my room is open to let the heat out. And everyone, in my dorm at least, is a jerk or *****. It doesn’t help matters that my dorm is on the opposite side of campus so no one wants to walk over nor do I wanna walk over there. On top of things, I just really hate this school. It doesn’t feel like college, it’s too small, everyone here appears to be rich and snobby, and I loathe my dorm. In fact, this was my bottom of the barrel safety school and the only reason I’m going is because of the financial aid. I need an escape (besides coming home)

I might be doing something wrong here with girls, but I’m outgoing and confident with people I know at least.

Here is where weed comes into question. I’ve done extensive research on the subject and I’m not too concerned about any potential health effects. In fact, the main reason I want to try it out is because I want to just let all that stress go for that time period, make me a relaxed individual, and perhaps in the long term make my anxieties about approaching girls go away.

On the other hand, I heard for people like myself, I would just become paranoid while high. I do not know.

MY MAIN CONCERN is the legality. It’s not legal here in Connecticut, but neither is alcohol for minors, but that doesn’t stop me. I’m just scared of the potential repercussions.

My best friend at college said he’s going to smoke with his other friend next Friday. I only know what the kid looks like and have said only a few words with him. He said we’ll smoke in his car and then come back to campus.

I’m already sketched out because I don’t know where he can take us so we would apparently be safe from law enforcement. (After all, how do you hide smoke, the smell of it, or symptoms of being high?)

I think I’m thinking logically, but maybe it’s my worry side kicking in because it’s a new thing. After all, I had the same anxieties about alcohol for years and haven’t started drinking until a couple of months ago, where it was like, “Oh ok, if you’re not an idiot, it’s pretty hard to get caught.”

Is weed the same story?

Given what I told you, is that the answer? I really need a temporary escape from this hellhole called my life and I’ve just been depressed the past few weeks. And as of lately, I’ve been really starting to hate and give up on women all together (due to some ***** girls giving me a hard time recently). So hooking up with one would be out of the question given I have no game.
And how can I get over the stress/worrying?